What a wonderful life.....I hope!

I think the past year and a half has been one of the most hardest and worst year of my life. All around me things are falling apart, I don't know how much longer I can take it. They say God gives us only what we can handle and that it prepares us. Sometimes I say I can't handle this but I must keep going because God knows my strength and what I can do. I look around me and all I see is sadness and I'm constantly praying for everybody here on earth that things will get better. I hope we can all make this Christmas the best we can, remember to never take for granite the time you have with your loved ones. I know you say nothing will ever happen to my family everybody will always be around. I said it too but I learned the hard way that is not the case, live today like it could be your last. Never end the day being mad at someone or even leave them being mad. You should always say I love you and see you later! And always remember to be thankful for what you have because there a million people out there who have it ten times worse then you do.

People boggle me!

I really don't understand the bird finger. Ok so I accidentally cut you off, honest mistake is it really necessary to flip me off? What does that accomplish, honestly? It's not like I singled you out and said to myself, "Hey I think I'm going to cut that person off....NOW!". Is there something I don't know about this one single finger. Does it do something to me? Let's all be adults and move on.

Halloween

This year I have to say was a nice, calm, and fun Halloween! Ashton was a skeleton this year, he was a little against it in the beginning at first but finally came around. We went trunk or treating at the church and then went to a couple of houses. When we went back home for a break Ashton made the decision not to go back out and get more candy. All he wanted to do was hand it out to everybody that came to the door, it was so cute to watch him get all excited when the door bell rang. He would make sure to shout out to everyone that HE will answer it. He would get the bowl ready and make sure it was full for the treaters. I swear yesterday it was his first Halloween dressed up in a infant costume :(. Time just really flies, in the moment it doesn't seem like it but all the sudden it goes from that moment to three years later ha ha. Well hope you all had a great Halloween, and now its time for Christmas woo woo!

It's been awhile!

It's been awhile since I've posted anything, my bad! I've made a lot of life changes, I think the biggest decision was becoming a member of the LDS church. I've never been happier and just relaxed in my life then I am now. Everybody has their opinion on religion and that's good but this is mine and I don't judge anyone else for theirs. I've met a lot of great people that have helped me through some hard times and I've experienced some great things. I'm in some debt because of my past decisions which I've stressed out about so much but now I don't stress as much because I know it will all work out as long as I have faith. I'm getting ready to start school finally which I feel I'm ready for. Yes it's a little later then other people my age but eh who cares lol. I don't know what I want to goto school for just quite yet but hopefully something that I enjoy so much I would do it for free! Ashton just turned three this past month and is already gaining a teenager attitude lol. You think time goes by slow just wait till you have a kid, IT FLIES!! I swear I was in the hospital yesterday meeting him for the first time. I've had so many blessings in my life and I'm very grateful for each one. The biggest blessing yet was from my Aunt Cheryl, she gave me a car. That has helped me out so much and will help much more in the year to come! She's the most giving person I know, anybody would be lucky to know a person like her, I love her so much! Well thats what's been going on lately, and I'll try to keep this thing updated more often!

Spanish Fork Fiesta Days!

I'm a little bummed that Fiesta Days have come and gone! They were a lot of fun, expensive, but fun. I must say though the carnival these days are EXPENSIVE. Other than that though it was all good. Since Ashton is older and understands more he was able to go on the rides and have a good time. The first time we went Leslie, Thayne, and Thiago came with, they both had a good time riding. The last ride Thiago and Ashton wanted to ride that night was the little boat ride. We were at the very beginning of the line and the boys were so excited to ride, even the lady who was running it was getting them hyped up. All the sudden though she came back and told us that she wasn't doing anymore rides! What the heck, GAY! They couldnt go past 10 oh goodness, I can understand the bigger rides with the teenagers and adults but when you get little kids hyped up and then say no, I'm not going to lie it's rude they're little kids for crying out loud. Hmmm oh I was bummed I didn't get to goto the rodeo either but oh well always next year right! Well anyway here are some pics!

Summer fun!

So I gotta admit I'm a true Spanish Forkian lol! I've been so flippin excited for Fiesta days I contain it!! They started having activities this past weekend and one of them was the tiny concert by the library. It was bunches of fun and Ashton had a blast going up to random ppl, don't ask me why. He use to be really shy but now he'll just go up to anybody that looks interesting lol. The concert was nice and the food was good. It was kind of funny though to see everybody dancing, awww I love ppl! Ok I'm not gonna lie either, there are some cute guys on the SF police ha ha just putting it out there. Everything is about to start I can't wait to take Ashton to the Carnival this may be the first year he'll actually enjoy them. If you know him lol he's kind of a girly girl right now not to be mean lol. Just today he came in with a shoe that had a smashed bug on it. I got a diaper wipe and cleaned it off, then crumpled it up, I asked Ashton to throw it away and he screamed and started saying eww mom eww that yucky GROSS and wouldn't even touch it. I don't know why he can pick up a rollie pollie bug but not throw one away that wrapped up in a piece of trash. Ha ha kids are just the funnest they truly do make life interesting. Well there will be lots to post this week hope to see everyone there!!

Hiking

Yesterday I went on a hike with a group of ppl from my ward. We wanted to start at 730 but didn't leave spanish till about 830 and it was all the way in Nephi where we wanted to hike. We got there and oh geez it was getting dark so we had to hurry up to the falls. It was a pretty good hike and I was so proud of myself that I could keep up lol because I am not in the best shape. Today though I am paying for it, I'm so exhausted, tired, and my legs hurt! It was all worth it though lol. The scary part was hiking back down, oh we had to turn around because it was dark and Ricky didn't know how much further it would be. We were in bear country so that was freaky but I learned from my mom and grandpa what to watch out for and how to listen, that part was hard though because I think I'm a little deaf lol! Then we went to sonic and I had a yummy strawberry limeade YUM!!! I'm so glad that I made the decision to join the church, because I have never been so happy, I feel so much closer to my heavenly father, and I've met a lot of great people, seriously they're freaken awesome! I've been bad about keeping up with my blogging lol. Lets see I moved out my parents house, I was baptized, gone out on a couple of dates, and I'm butt poor but I'm so happy. I'm also really excited for September, I'll tell you why later lol some of you already know but yeah shhhh. I don't know why you have to be shh but oh well I feel like a giggly little girl ha ha ha.

Great friends are a must in life!

People come and go in your life but friends, GREAT friends are always there. I know my life isn't the hardest compared to others but it just is to me. I've gone through a lot that has brought me here to this point in my life. I was with someone who somehow got me to distance myself from great friends and I don't know how this person did it but I'm glad that part of my life is over. I wouldn't be here today if it were not for these great friends. But the the greatest one is my friend Leslie! She is a freaken trooper and she is always the sunshine that turns my rainy day around. No matter what life has thrown at her she somehow always manages to overcome it. I really consider myself lucky to have found a best friend like her who's more of a sister to me then a friend. She has a great family, her husband Thayne and their beautiful son Thiago, they are such an amazing family that it makes me look forward to that day that I will have that. You guys are the best and I am so glad to have friends like you. I love you Leslie!

Our new blog!

Well a lot has happened in the past month and now I am a single parent. I don't regret my decision because now I am the happiest I have ever been in my life besides the day I had my son Ashton. It has been tough and I it will get tougher but I know just by the people that I have around me, all will be okay! Ashton is the reason I wake up everyday and strive to keep going and to make something of myself, to show him that you yourself can succeed if you truly want to. One piece of advice to any parent, it is not in anyway good to stay with your spouse because of the kids. Although we commit our lives to our kids, we ourselves have to be truly happy in order to survive. I thought I could have been happy because at least my son was taken care of but going through the mental abuse and letting myself go was not good. And I started to feel like I was worth nothing and deserved nothing, but today that is truly different because now I want to be the best I can be for my son and set a great example! Anyway lol yeah I just started this new blog because I couldn't figure out how to change the web address to the other one I had that included my ex. I'll keep you all updated!