Lol it's been awhile!

Wow last post was almost 3 months ago and I'm a little embarrassed to report there really isn't anything that's changed lol. I'm working at the Chevron here in Spanish, which is a lot of fun I work with a great group of people. Summer has been going good, took Ashton fishing for the first time with his new Sponge Bob fishing pool which he broke today lol. He's very active and really just likes tinker with everything especially his grandpa's stuff. He has a huge bin of toys but rather get into anything he can and take it apart, little boys lol! Time is going by so fast he'll be 4 this year :(, baby is growing up. Other then that nothing much just same ol same ol, I got some pictures done by the fabulous Ms. Chelsey, her company is called Urbanite Imagery you can find her on my facebook friends she did a great job! Well hope all is well in your lives, love ya!

~*~HAPPY MOTHERS DAY~*~

I haven't updated this thing in awhile goodness hold on let me dust off them cob webs..........okay all done! Yeah I know I'm lame like that ha ha ha. Well things have been going good I finally got a job which I'm super excited about. A very big thank you goes out to Leslie because she helped me get it yay! The people are super nice and very fun to work with, and I get to meet a lot of people. It's super easy job but I look forward to going to it every time I work, it is hard though leaving Ashton I've been out of work so long that we're always together. I do miss him a ton at work but I'm working for him so that's good. Ashton is learning new things each day and just amazes me all the time. He's always making me laugh with his little things or spur of the moment sayings lol. I love being his mother, I do wish I would've waited a bit longer to have him but I don't regret it one bit. My life would be worse off with out him, he helped me in a lot of ways and he doesn't know it. I'm so proud to be his momma! Let's see I'm still dating Steve, we haven't been able to see each other in a while because of certain circumstances but it's really made us a lot stronger. I've know him for almost seven years now and he's been a great friend the whole time. He's always been there for me to listen and help me through some tough times. I always really liked him but when one of us was single the other wasn't so it never really worked out. But last November luckily we both we single lol, I was kind of iffy at first just because I didn't want to ruin the friendship we had but then I didn't want to wonder always "What if?". Seven months later and I feel like I've been with him forever! He's such a great guy, he loves Ashton, and he treats me very well! I've always loved him I just never realized how much, and with all the crap I've put him through I love him even more as a friend and boyfriend. Other then that nothing else is new still going through the child custody thing but hopefully that goes through soon. I hope all you wonderful mothers have a great Mothers day I love you all!

Recently

Phew it's been awhile since I've written anything. Nothing new much just still trying to goto school and all that good stuff. I did enter 971 zht Valentines Massacre and actually won the ring!!! I didn't think I was going to but heck I did whoop whoop, it's a beautiful ring I just really don't know what to do with it lol. Ashton is growing more and more everyday and getting very smart for his age lol. He's still very much into Thomas which is kind of a bad thing for me ha ha. Thomas is very expensive train, in my opinion he needs to come off his high horse and be a bit more affordable. Does he not know about the economy these days????? I'm proud to say also that Ashton is very much potty trained thank goodness because diapers are........EXPENSIVE!!!!! I'm glad to have a little bit of a breather there before I need to buy those gosh darn things again, but hopefully not to much of a gap ;) This year is going to be a tough one but also a good one, I have some great friends who have been there for me no matter what through thick and thin. I'm so very grateful to have joined the church also. This June will mark my one year since becoming a member of the LDS church which is just the greatest thing that could've ever happened to me, well except Ashton. I think that will help me get through the custody case that is about to happen. It's going to be hard but I just hope everything turns out and its in the best interest of Ashton. Well I think that's about it, I hope you all are doing well!

Park City!

My Grandma was in town these past couple of days so we decided to go up to Park City. I live in Utah but I haven't been there since I was 9 kind of sad! It was so beautiful, just breath taking! Ashton had a great time running around playing in snow and seeing all the cool lights, and ice sculptures. Then we had dinner at a place called the Eating Establishment. It was pretty good and the orange juice there was DELICIOUS!! I only saw one celebrity and it was through the window. He was the actor from Lord of the Rings and Hidalgo, his name is Hugo something lol I forgot but my little sister Sassy loves him. I had a lot of fun especially getting to be with my Grandma. She is such a great woman and has accomplished so much, she really is a role model. She's worked very hard to get to where she is and it has truly paid off. She goes everywhere but she still down to earth. I'm so glad to call her my grandma, 80 but seems like she's only 50 0r 6o, going strong! Welp I'm not going to wait another 9 years to go back up there, I really want to see Park City during the summer!

Monster Trucks!

Welp today I went to my first Monster Truck event! It was pretty fun being with Ashton, and Steve. The only truck there that I ever heard of was big foot, and there were three other monster trucks there but one of them broke down. It was small track so I didn't expect much, it was good though. Although I just wish they did more freestlye stuff instead of the racing. I hope they come back in the summer and do it at a bigger rink! Lol mainly I'm just saying it was fun and just being there with Ashton and Steve made it that much better! Life is good finally!

New Year, New Beginnings!

So 2009 was a difficult year yet a happy ending! I made a lot of changes and I'm so happy that I did. I'm hoping and praying that 2010 will be happy and way better then 2009. So here are some of my New Years Resolutions:
1:Stop drinking Pepsi
2:Put myself on a diet
3:Get into school
4:Find a good paying job and stick with it.
Well those are my main ones and I swear I'm going to do them because those are part of my life changes I'm making. I'm struggling but I'm the happiest I've ever been. I wish you all the best in this new year and new decade, I love you all!

What a wonderful life.....I hope!

I think the past year and a half has been one of the most hardest and worst year of my life. All around me things are falling apart, I don't know how much longer I can take it. They say God gives us only what we can handle and that it prepares us. Sometimes I say I can't handle this but I must keep going because God knows my strength and what I can do. I look around me and all I see is sadness and I'm constantly praying for everybody here on earth that things will get better. I hope we can all make this Christmas the best we can, remember to never take for granite the time you have with your loved ones. I know you say nothing will ever happen to my family everybody will always be around. I said it too but I learned the hard way that is not the case, live today like it could be your last. Never end the day being mad at someone or even leave them being mad. You should always say I love you and see you later! And always remember to be thankful for what you have because there a million people out there who have it ten times worse then you do.